The Wedge

2006-03-20T21:30:00.000-08:00

Well alot has happened since the last time I posted on this thing. The friend I was having problems with and I kind of parted ways from each other. We still talk just not as much and I have moved on. But now I have to be very carefull not to put myself into the same siguation and not fall head over heals for someone again. This is going to be hard since there is already someone who has caught my interest and they seem like someone I could really get along well with. Dang it I cant do this again I have to keep myself in check I need to just forget about the whole trying to find someone cause its just not gonna happen and Im just gonna get hurt all over again....

2005-12-24T00:33:00.000-08:00

Alot of times around the holidays its hard being single, there are just certain things that you want to share with someone special and if you dont have someone then its tough. Its even tougher when you care about someone but you cant get them to feel the same way. Im writing this cause Ive just felt down this evening and I need to get it off of me. I guess I miss a closeness that I had with a friend the feeling that no matter what you could call them up and just say hey and talk about what ever. I miss having someone care about whats going on in my life, right now its like a empty feeling. I know that there isnt anything I can do about it and that I have to move on but its almost impossible with nights like these. I dont know if the scars from this one will ever stop hurting. I tried to focus on other people maybe be interested in someone else and that didnt work cause I felt like I was cheating which is stupid I know. Its kind of like that country song "I miss my friend". Its hard not to get depressed if I watch any tv there are things on there that just make it ten times worse. I dont know what Im going to do a part of me wishes I never met her. Every time I see her its like looking at something I failed at and there is something wrong I did or there is something about me that makes it not work. I know every one wants someone to like them but dude can I just have one person like me once in my life like honestly am I asking for to much all I want is one girl to be interested in me.

2005-11-25T10:13:00.000-08:00

Im posting on this webite honestly cause I dont think any one reads it any more. I have been struggling with alot of things in my life right now. I have a close friend that I used to talk to all the time about anything and things were great until I had to started having feelings for her. And she doesnt feel the same way. I began to question things like why do I have feelings for someone who doesnt feel the same way and why cant I get rid of them. I tried to make things work and still be friends with her but it started to get harder and harder. Just this past week I mest up again for like the 3rd time when I sent an email saying I was frustrated that we didnt talk as much. You know what good that did well it only made her talk to me less. I cant really explain to any one what Im going through cause most people wont understand. There are days when I think about just getting in my car and start driving and never look back. I know you think that this is stupid and that I shouldnt be that upset and your probably right, but I am and I dont know how to get over this. Some people tell me just be her friend right now and maybe things will change later on. And that sounds easy to do but some how I always find a way to screw it up and I dont want to keep making her upset cause she has enough to deal with already with School and other problems...I honestly feel like just crying right now but I cant.....

Musical Baton

2005-05-19T13:58:00.000-07:00

Ok let me try this one again see if I can get it right this time.

Total volume of music files on my computer: 501

The last CD I bought was:
I dont remember the name of it but I know it was a Backstreet boy cd a long! long! time ago.

Song playing right now:
“Its Hard to Say Im Sorry" by Az Yet

Five songs I listen to a lot, or that mean a lot to me:

1."Back Home" Yellowcard ( This song means alot to me)
2."True Colors" Phill Collins ( Yeah I still got the song stuck in my head!!!)
3."Something to Sleep To" Michelle Branch ( Really good song!)
4."Home" Staind ( This is my favorite song for when Im depressed = (
5."Sooner Or Later" Breaking Benjamin ( This song is for all the girls that didnt like me haha)

There are tons more songs that I like or that mean alot to me and I know Im all over the place with the songs but hey thats the way my life is just one big roller coaster.

Classics

2005-05-10T21:12:00.001-07:00

Ok recently I have started to listening to good old songs instead of the newer rock or pop. I used to listen to an oldies station all the time but then thought it wasnt cool any more for some reason. Alot of you might think Im weird or that Im going through one of those phases, and maybe I am. I told some of my friends about what I was listening to some laughed and others tried to get me to see a doctor haha j/k. Ill go ahead and tell you some of the songs Ive been listening to. Any thing from the Beach Boys is good stuff and you can never go wrong with them. Ive also been listening to some of the Temptations and the Platters. Any one ever heard of a band called Az Yet, a great song by them is "Its hard to say Im sorry". Oh yeah and one of my close friends got this song stuck in my head by Phil Collins "True Colors". Yeah its still stuck in my head haha but I guess were even cause I got a song stuck in your head to haha. Ok well I dont know why I made this post but I thought it would be funny so if you like it cool if not well leave your number and I will send ya something haha.

New Band

2005-03-29T12:42:00.000-08:00

Ok this is a new band I just heard. I dont know if any of you have heard them already but the name of the band is Hidden In Plain View. They are alot like a band called Matchbook Romance but they just mix up alot of sounds. And they dont just have a couple of good songs they actually have alot. If you are reading this just download one of the songs I put up from this band cause they are really good and you wont regret it. Heres a list of some of the songs, "20 Below", "An American Classic", "Eyes Like a Target", "Bleed For You","The Chaser","Where the Highway Ends", "The Point", and "Ashes Ashes". Now these arent all the songs they have this is only a few that I liked, but have yet to get all of them. So there you go this is a great band that hopefully you havent heard already.

Bands

2005-03-25T20:44:00.000-08:00

Ok one of my friends suggested that I post about some of the new bands that I have found lately since he doesnt really have any way to hear new stuff. So I guess this is going to be a little different then my normal posts.
The first band I will start off with is a band called Armor For Sleep. There music is alot like a harder version of New Found Glory but maybe not as good as them haha. Some of their songs that I thought were good are "Car Under Water", "Kind Of Perfect", and "RainDrops"(This is a great song).
The next band is called Straylight Run. This band is a slow more mellow type of band and they like to incorporate a piano in some of their songs. One of the more popular songs is called "Existenstialism On Prom Night" other songs include "Slow Decent" and "The Tension And The Terror".
Ok this is going to be the last band and its pretty much the best that I have found so far. The band is called Saosin and it is more on the rock side then the punk so for those who like hard music this is a good band. I showed one of my friends the band and he was totally pumped up about it. Some of the songs are "I Cant Tell", "Translating a Name","3rd Measurement In C" and "They Perch On Their Stilts And Dare Me To Breathe".
This is not a band its just an artist and more so one song that I want to throw out there cause I do like slow songs. And I guess this is for the women readers out there but if you havent already heard of a girl by the name of Natalie I dont even know her last name or I cant find it listed on the song. The name of the song is "Going Crazy" and its more of a slow song but I really like it and suggest if you havent heard it listen to it.
Ok these are just some of the recent Bands and or songs I have found and maybe you have heard them already if you have then thats fine, Im just giving you a chance to hear new things. If your one of my friends that doesnt really like to download music just IM me when Im online and let me know what songs you want and I will send them to you. Aight peace out.

Blogs

2005-03-16T22:34:00.000-08:00

Ok I guess I better explain this. I started doing blogs cause I dont know I felt like it was a way to epress my love for surfing and just get stuff out in the open. I dont blog every day like some people and like others who do it more then once a day. I try not to put down any of my friends in my blogs and if I have a problem with something they did I try to explain and I never say ok this friend is an idiot and put it out there for others to see and respond to it. So I just want to say that Im glad I can give some people content for their blogs since they have nothing better to do then to write about my problems and tell everyone they know. I enjoy writing about surf spots and it takes alot of work to find them and for those few people who actually read this blog I hope you enjoy the info and get a chance to see why I love surfing so much.

Update

2005-02-27T16:29:00.000-08:00

Ok I know I havent posted on here in like a month or two and its cause I have been really busy and alot of crazy stuff has happened recently, so Im going to try and update any one who reads this still about whats been going on. First off I coached a group of Jr High Boys and also a group of Kindergarden Boys and they are both awesome I love coaching them. Well recently I have had some disagrements with some of the people in charge of where i coach. They have alot of strick rules some of which if you heard you would think they were insane. So any ways I started to disagree and they eventually came to me and gave me two options either I quit and leave or I stay and take a break. Either one I picked I would lose my boys. So I was in a bind I didnt know what I should do I didnt want to quit but I felt like if I lost my boys why would I stay. So I came to the conclusion to stay and see what happens this way I at least got to say good bye to my boys and try to explain although not really telling all that happened to them and hoping they would understand. That was hands down the toughest thing I have ever had to do, tell them that I wasnt going to see them any more. But Im hoping they understand and it doesnt hurt them to much.
As if that wasn't bad enough a things started to not work out with a close friend that I cared alot about. Ask yourself something if you had a friend who never cared about what was going on with you in your life and was only kind of using you for attention wouldnt that make you a little upset. Yeah so was I. I dont hate her and we are still friends but she has her own life and I have mine and right now I really dont need to do anything for her. This kind of siguation makes you think about who your friends really are and I know I have some really good friends who have helped me through this siguation and you guys know who you are, you guys are the best.
These last couple of weeks have been a real test for me and I think all in all I have done ok I mean yeah I lost alot but Im still on my feet and I can hold my head high knowing that this was just another bump in the road of life. Im sure this isnt the last bump or the only one cause I still have a long road ahead and there are somethings that I am unsure about. But I am a little bit wiser about some of the friends I choose and also some of my actions I take. I know this is a really long post and if you are still reading this your awesome and I hope what I say can help some people.

2005-02-06T23:14:00.000-08:00

The end to a perfect day!

2005-02-06T23:09:00.000-08:00

Playing with Giants!

2005-02-06T23:07:00.000-08:00

Cheating Death

2005-02-06T23:06:00.000-08:00

Free Fall

2005-02-06T23:04:00.000-08:00

The Chase is on!

Cortes Bank

2005-02-06T22:19:00.000-08:00

Ok everyone its time to get back to talking about the surf and get away from this drama for a little while. So for all of those needing a break and you want to see something cool check this out.
Cortez Bank the break that put California on the Big wave surfing map and when you see pictures from it you will understand why. The break is about 100 miles off the coast of Southern California out in the middle of the ocean. Yeah I know you are asking the same question I did how in the world is there a wave that big out in the middle of no where, well let me explain. At Cortes Bank there is a huge underwater mountain range that is about 4 miles long and so the swell hits the mountain range and with the perfect conditions which doesnt happen to often, you get huge waves.
On January 19, 2001 the waves at Cortes Bank were off the hook and several of the best big wave surfers scrambled to get out there. One of them Mike Parsons caught one of the biggest waves any one had ever seen. Experts measured the wave at 30 feet but this was from the back of the wave the wall of water that was chasing Mike that day was 60 ft high thats the same height as a 6 story building. The wave ended up winning him a check for $60,000 for winning Billabong XXL Big Wave Contest. His partner Ken "Skindog" Collins said that he thought he should get a cut of the money just for having to watch that wave.
There arent any words that can describe this place and pictures for the most part dont do it justice so as I will add links to the end of this post where you can watch video and actually see the wave and hear it.
Mike Parsons said it best after finishing surfing there all day saying "We were a 100 miles in the middle of no where playing with Giants" . There are only two places I want to see before I die and this is one of them. You could go your whole life and work your 9-5 and live the normal life but never really be alive and seeing these places and the respect they command is truely amazing and for some people its the only way they can really feel alive. So here are some links and I will also post pictures.
http://www.surfline.com/video/vids/2002/may/jsps/cortes_wm.cfm
http://www.garrettmcnamara.com/movies/gmac_kalama_cortez04.mov

Surfing

2005-01-25T21:26:00.000-08:00

Ok I'm posting this cause I need to let some steam off. If some of you who read this dont already know but the Inagural came and I asked the group that Im with if it would be ok if I didnt go. And well lets say the response was not to friendly alot of harsh things were said and it made me mad. And so I ended up deciding not to go. Some people understood why and alot of others didnt and were upset. So I guess I kind of wanted to compare surfing to life and this is for some of the people who are struggling with other things in their lives like relationships and what not. The first time you go surfing you will fall its just like any other extreme sport like snowboarding or anything else you cant expect to go first try and not fail. Some people believe that if they stay away from certain things they wont get hurt like for instance a relationship with a girl yeah you wont get hurt now but in order to succeed later on in life you have to learn how to have a relationship. You cant just get out of college and expect to be an expert cause some wave is going to wipe you out. And this can go for anything in your life in order to be good at anything it takes time and experience. And when you fall yeah it hurts but you learn from your mistakes and you get up and you are a stronger person from it. The ocean is a mighty force it doesnt care who you are what you did or didnt do you have to respect it or it will make you pay and I think its a good way of humbling people and even if your the best athlete in the world it can still take you out. So I guess what Im saying is Surfing is like life no matter how many rules you put on people you still have to fall in order to succeed and I wish alot more people understood this.

Fear

2005-01-21T22:37:00.000-08:00

Ok this post is on Fear and Im going to try and explain a little about myself. I dont know of alot of things Im afraid of and I try to live my life that way. Now Im not saying Im completly fearless cause I found that out today when I heard something from a close friend. This friend who I care alot about is trying to get a job where their life is at risk every day. And this was the first time in a while I felt fear. This is something this friend really wants to do and says that they have wanted to do since they were a kid and I dont want to tell them hey you shouldnt do that cause its dangerous. But I honestly dont like that they want to do this. I know that seems kind of selfish and I really want this friend to follow their dreams but like I said at the begining Im scared for them.

Advice

2005-01-16T23:31:00.000-08:00

Ok from time to time I might post something other then surf spots usually something that has happened to me or that is going to happen so here it goes. This is advice for any one who might ever come across the same siguation in dealing with a friend of the opposite sex. Dont take anything for granted and I know thats kind a vague but let me try to explain with out going into it to deep. When your dealing with someone you are interested in dont hold anything back cause you will regret it in the end, not knowing what would have been is not something you want to be thinking. Sometimes the result isnt what you wanted but at least you know and arent wondering what if? You only get certain chances and there is no gurantee the you will be there the next day. So live life to the fullest and dont listen to what people say or think about you. I dont claim to have all the answers and I make alot of mistakes but I will always have something that I love to fall back on and that is the surf.
Sometimes when Im down I try to write something kind of like a poem but sometimes its just thoughts and so I will post what I wrote. Im not a great writer by anymeans but here it goes.
The sun sets on another California Day
Its getting harder to find reasons to stay
Somethings are better left alone
Maybe its better on my own
Time will pass as the sun fades away
I wish I had one more chance to Say
Every moment spent with you all the pain I went through
Was worth the heart break in the end and I would always do it again
But here I am on the highway driving the pain away, with a bottle of novacain
Some day you will find someone to call your own.
Some one to hold a place to call home
In the end all I will be is an old memory
I wanted the chance to say Im sorry
Time will pass as the sun fades away
I wish I had one more chance to Say
Every moment spent with you all the pain I went through
Was worth the heart break in the end and I would always do it again
But here I am on the highway driving the pain away, with a bottle of novacain
(Dedicated to a special person)

2005-01-09T22:27:00.000-08:00

Goosh!! This is my wave

2005-01-09T22:25:00.000-08:00

Must go faster! Must go faster!

2005-01-09T22:22:00.000-08:00

Some how I dont feel safe right here

Mavericks

2005-01-09T21:41:00.000-08:00

Ok Ive been really busy lately and things have been crazy so I know its been a while since I last posted. But stay with me and I promise you wont be dissapointed. The next stop in California is up North to a place called Half Moon bay and a recently discovered surf spot known as Mavericks. Now Mavericks has given California the respect that is much deserved. Most people when asked where to find big waves would say North Shore and when they here California they would laugh, but not any more. Mavericks is a wave that breaks over an ocean reef that is a half mile off the coast. There is a deep water canyon to the west and the large ocean swells come from the North or West depending on the storm. The swell moves unobstructed through the canyon before being funneled to the main Bowl. Once the swell hits the reef its stoped in its tracks and all the power and energy of the swell rises up and heaves toward the shore with the force of an Avalanche and it forms Mavericks.
Many big wave surfers have come to take on Mavericks and on December 1994 Mark Foo and Ken Bradshaw along with about 20 other big wave surfers went to Mavericks. It was the biggest conversion of big wave surfers ever but it would end in tragedy when Mark Foo drowned. The wave at Mavericks is a wave that has to be respected at all times and no one goes out there just for fun it takes focus and alot of work to surf this wave. And even when you have all that sometimes its all in Gods hands.

2004-12-19T22:15:00.000-08:00

"Hey did I leave the Iron on!"

2004-12-19T22:12:00.000-08:00

That just isnt pretty

2004-12-19T22:10:00.000-08:00

Normal day at the Wedge

The Wedge

2004-12-19T21:27:00.000-08:00

Ok since the blog is named after this spot and since Im from SoCal I figure this is the best place to start so here it is. The Wedge is probably one of the nastiest waves on the west coast and it isnt really a wave its actually two. The wedge is located at Newport Beach in Orange County. The reason the wave is so brutal is because of the location. The wave runs perpendicular to a sea wall and once it gets closer to the shore it meets the receding wave and there is a violent explosion that sends anything and everything up where the sea gulls fly. A common thought that goes through surfers and bodyboarders mind as they attempt to takle this wave is "Dang, is my chirophractor covered in my medical plan?" and considering what has happened to people in the past you might need more then a chirophrator. Injuries usually include broken limbs even broken necks. The reason this wave is deadly is not only the force and natural wave but also it breaks right on the beach and its really shallow so when you get tossed usually its right into the ground. The wave has been refered to as the "Meat Grinder" along with other names that cant be put on this blog for editing reasons but you get the picture. After this post I will put as many pictures as I can find of the wave.

Dreams

2004-12-12T22:49:00.000-08:00

Ok Ive been having these dreams lately and they have been giving me a feeling of comfort in reall life. I know this sounds weird and some people might not understand. But have you ever had a dream and it just made you feel better and all those people with your head in the gutter get out. But I mean a dream where it just gave you encouragement or something like that. Well if there is any one who reads this and can respond just let me know Im not losing my mind and Im not the only one out there.
On a side note I wanted to explain a little about what some of the post are going to be like on this Blog. Other then the random post of what ever is in my head that day I want to show some people about Surfing and Bodyboarding places that most people have never heard or seen. And I will try hard to get pictures. I will be telling you about places like "The Wedge", "Mavericks", " Cortez Bank" and a bunch more that arent in California.

Big Game

2004-12-12T01:19:00.000-08:00

Aight well I just got back from my brothers football game. It was a CIF Championship game that we lost 13-0. Yeah I know what a bummer so Im kind of down right now. I know what my brother feels like right now its not a good feeling. I lost Championship games when I played in Highschool it is never easy to get that far and lose on the last game. But it makes you stronger and he still has one more year left so he has one more shot at it.

First Time

2004-12-10T23:48:00.000-08:00

Hey whats up everyone this is the first post of this Blog and hopefully there will be alot more to come. This is something new for me and Im still getting used to this whole creative side. But hang in and I will get it aight. Peace out.